Sorry don’t…sooth now-a-days, don’t placate.
Ordinary word, for an ordinary lie.
Regret has simply been disassociated with it’s utterance.
Remorse, something that should go with, but lost in the acceptance of it.
You breath easy now, that it’s taken and accepted, now you’re free to do it again.
Now taking a King,
Needed, one brotha grown into his skin,
and liking it there.
One not prone to calamitous attacks of egotistical self indulgence,
capable even of giving this devil her due…
respect.
To be returned in kind and ten fold,
A man who possesses a King’s ransom in truth,
A true master in possession of the knowledge of his own weakness.
And in so is able to appreciate the cracks which form a granite woman.
A capable brotha, able to shoulder proudly the responsibility of a woman’s love.
One who finds pleasure in her mind as well as her body,
Willing to bond in spirit with his Queen.
Now taking a King,
A queen in process of building her nation seeking conversation,
Consultation of unmitigated condor,
Was there ever a light that sparked deeper passion?
Seeking a creature of purposeful determination,
an enduring presence,
Not so fickle as to be seduced by the cheapness of a change in self definition,
as offered by the bosom of another.
Knowing it is so much delusion bought on by an inability to harvest pride from his life doings.
Seeking a King, hoping to find shelter in his arms,
as his heart is her fortress,
and their bodies temples of mutual exhalation, submission to faith,
In his steadfast dedication to meaningful things.
A hard won Crown seeking a Kingly companion.
.
She wants to fall into him,
To lose herself in the feel of his lips,
In his scent,
In the way his stubble scrapes across her skin when he tastes her.
She wants to be surrounded by him,
cocooned in his warmth,
On ever plain of their them-ness.
She wants to be taken by him,
made to feel more essential that air,
To know that she alone inspires the wanton that stoked the fire in his eyes.
the muse of his moans, his Persephone.
She wants to know him,
To be that kind of intimate it is so easy to be in the absence of love.
She wants to be wanted,
To encompass and enfold him within herself,
Want to metamorphose into this new being,
By being herself within him, while he occupies her.
She want to be owned.
Unmistakably, uninhibitedly claimed,
In word and action in a way that is…
Unrevokable.
It’s a tragic destitution to want so much.
To be so without center, insufficient, alone.
But oh what poetry to find that merging,
To have faith so richly rewarded,
To be so treasured.
She simply wants all of him.
Dear Sir,
I wish I had her voice,
Then I could emote these feeling clearly enough,
To capture both your attention and your interest.
I wish I had his flow,
That once if only once could I be worth your adoration?
I wish I had her newness,
Or is it haplessness,
Inexperience maybe?
But then I am become my insecurities,
Or are they yours?
What’s worse,
Bitchy or crazy?
Crazy or bitchy?
Jealous, Fucked up or defeated?
I wish I could see you,
When they aren’t watching.
Is there ever a moment when it isn’t your inclination to appear,
Interesting, intelligent, or superior?
Or is that all you are,
A facade of shit well handled?
Well, sir.
Dear sir.
Fuck you.
I am naught in need of an idol to worship
Yes Sir,
Dear sir,
Keep your noose,
And your favor.
Blessed evening and Goodnight.
Woman down!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Shhhhhhh…..
Not far past 20 and pregnant again…for shame…disgrace, and shame…
hang your head low,
shuffle slow,
this is the event, the singularity in time and action that will define you…
forever less, forever belittled, forever lost is your worth…
A child, for a child is a loss of all potential,
A sister now rendered rubbish.
Woman down!!!!!!!!!!
Shhhhhh….
A girl on fire…and a nation in outrage for a minute…
A perpetrator unwell and insignificant beside a child’s bravery.
Brave but broken behind closed doors is a fine irony,
Better that we forget and offer topical smiles,
a soothing balm because all should be forgiven,
and better forgotten than the effort of justice.
Woman down!!!!!!!!!!
Shhhhhhh…..
Girl down, crash and shuffle a child has fallen at the hands of another,
but have heart he is someone’s brother,
and young sir this is not the mistake that will define you,
a hot temper is the thing of a boy, who will be a boy,
and she your victim should have had a protector.
Woman down!!!!!!!!!!!!
Shhhhhh….
Tender 13,
flesh just barely ripe but ready for the selling,
the taking and the rending,
she is the price of a mothers prospering,
and a nation shrugs it’s indifference.
Another child offering to a position of power,
untouchable even in the court of public opinion because this is power,
the power to be untouchable.
Woman Down!!!!!!!!! Shhhhh
Girl Down!!!!! Shhhh
Child Down!!!! Shhhh
How much is lost?
In plain view of everyone seeing,
while we fight our W.A.R and retake our P.O.W.A,
paying homage and lip service to the battle.
We create safe places for the chatter,
while there are no safe spaces for the martyrs.
Unwilling participants because it’s all for show,
and we cannot slow the spread of this sickness,
that all should know,
we paid homage if not action.
Woman down!!!!!! Shhhhh!!!!
tell noone,
speak the sermon of silence.
Sister singer belt me a tune,
Pour me a glass of you emotions,
I’ll sit and sip your sorrow.
Sister singer belt me a tune,
Serve me a platter of your hardship,
I’ll taste you anger, cut it to bits,
Piece by piece I’ll consume you.
Sister Singer belt me a tune,
Pluck me a fruit from your garden,
I’ll plant my teeth in your bitter-sweet,
savor your juice as I consume you.
Sister singer belt me a tune,
Bare your soul a meal for my satisfaction,
In exchange for a glancing compliment.
Sister singer belt me a tune,
To keep me amused,
‘Til I forget you when I leave.
Trying hard not to think,
Under the far reaching branches of the tree whose name I can’t remember,
The benches and the swaying branches are silent,
Leaving space infinite for the voices,
The ones I was trying hard to avoid.
My companions came to join me.
In as much as I had tried to drown them in quiet.
They simply settled wordless around me,
and too watched the branches sway,
and the dust from passing minibuses glide through the sunlight columns,
I knew their names, and was accustomed to their company.
Fear was the first to action,
A blade protruding from a wooden handle settled in my palm.
engraved in it the word ‘relief.‘
“It would be easy. Nothing else has been easy.”
I turned it over in my hands,
felt it’s weight and sighed.
It would be easy.
Disgust saw my resolve slipping,
and before my eyes danced a thousand memories.
A million instances of shouldas and couldas,
Trillions of ifs and maybes.
“Was it all someone else’s doing?
Do you deserve easy?”
Do I really? Does anyone?
Sadness came in to comfort,
holding me close so that tears could flow and I could sniffle unashamed.
This was weakness,
but what does it matter?
Weakness more than anything should be a right.
A place of unfettered access when one is forced to come to terms
with ones own limits.
We are all limited, are we not?
Anger placed on my lap a scroll,
Tied with a ribbon of red on which was written “Experience“.
I had survived this long,
clawed all that was good that I had out of the clutches of doubt and shame,
hadn’t I?
Wasn’t some part of that worthy of continuation?
Unfurled the scroll showed a river flowing onward into death,
and my place marked with a question.
“Where to?”
The tributaries of past experience splashed with color,
Indigo, reds, yellows and blues,
a code of good, bad and ugly,
attached at it’s bottom a quill.
I invited them to come with,
and we struck a path in the direction not yet blotched with memories.
Them keeping pace with my slow steadying feet,
making light conversation,
as if now given name and purpose they were no longer my jailers,
but my comrades in arms.
